Gratitude journal
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Gratitude journal
As I lie here in my bed getting over my latest jabs I want to go out to a meeting or do something but I know this would be crazy as I had to stand in the freezing cold for my jab over 2 hours ...No spring chicken at 63 ...
I was becoming more and more depressed thinking of my girl the addict haven’t seen or heard from her in over a year and the ripple effect of the illness ... haven’t seen my other girl for 12 years she is 44 and her daughter who is 25 for over 8 years you see their addiction is money both university graduates...
My marriage has ended husband making my life a misery for over 2 years now he loves to make my life a misery but I left and I left my 3 bedroom home new car swimming pool in Spain and I was totally unhappy sad manipulated by this narcissist... problem isi don’t like living alone never did but ironically I have lived alone most of my life ...
Am thinking I hope and pray my addict daughter for over 25 years now doesn’t die ( all of her friends have ) she died a couple of years ago and they brought her back with heart pads ..as I don’t have the money for the funeral until January husband has given me nothing for over 2 years now ....such a sad negative selfish way for me to think ...
So now at this moment I am trying to fight back all of the tragic times in my life .... I have to turn everything over to my higher power and get my gratitude journal out and be grateful for all the wonderful things in my life today I am warm safe and my health is good I am trying to live in the day yesterday is history ... my friends here on famanon and AA Xmas is a sad time for most people it’s all a mad money making scheme money truly is the route if all evil ..
thank god I am at peace and I don’t have to live in fear or denial ...
My gratitude is full of so many positive attributes for I am free and nothing can buy this ...
So I am left with myself yesterday and today but tomorrow beckons and it’s a brand new day ...
I am taking care of myself because famanon has loved me back to life as has AA ... I may never see my family again but hey ho that’s there loss not mine I know I tried my best ...
I am sponsoring anther girl starting on Thursday taking her through this beautiful program of recovery for this is my primary purpose to keep spiritually mentally and physically well and help others to find what I have been given so freely
Just some thoughts happy gratitude days
Yours in fellowship
Lesleerose
I was becoming more and more depressed thinking of my girl the addict haven’t seen or heard from her in over a year and the ripple effect of the illness ... haven’t seen my other girl for 12 years she is 44 and her daughter who is 25 for over 8 years you see their addiction is money both university graduates...
My marriage has ended husband making my life a misery for over 2 years now he loves to make my life a misery but I left and I left my 3 bedroom home new car swimming pool in Spain and I was totally unhappy sad manipulated by this narcissist... problem isi don’t like living alone never did but ironically I have lived alone most of my life ...
Am thinking I hope and pray my addict daughter for over 25 years now doesn’t die ( all of her friends have ) she died a couple of years ago and they brought her back with heart pads ..as I don’t have the money for the funeral until January husband has given me nothing for over 2 years now ....such a sad negative selfish way for me to think ...
So now at this moment I am trying to fight back all of the tragic times in my life .... I have to turn everything over to my higher power and get my gratitude journal out and be grateful for all the wonderful things in my life today I am warm safe and my health is good I am trying to live in the day yesterday is history ... my friends here on famanon and AA Xmas is a sad time for most people it’s all a mad money making scheme money truly is the route if all evil ..
thank god I am at peace and I don’t have to live in fear or denial ...
My gratitude is full of so many positive attributes for I am free and nothing can buy this ...
So I am left with myself yesterday and today but tomorrow beckons and it’s a brand new day ...
I am taking care of myself because famanon has loved me back to life as has AA ... I may never see my family again but hey ho that’s there loss not mine I know I tried my best ...
I am sponsoring anther girl starting on Thursday taking her through this beautiful program of recovery for this is my primary purpose to keep spiritually mentally and physically well and help others to find what I have been given so freely
Just some thoughts happy gratitude days
Yours in fellowship
Lesleerose
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You will enjoy sponsoring this young woman, Lesleerose. You have so much to offer her in terms of a much brighter future once she kicks her addiction.
They do say that you have to give it away to keep it don't they.
We all get those days when we brood a lot. It doesn't matter, as long as it doesn't set in and become a habit of mind, and so your gratitude journal is a brilliant way of keeping the Demons at bay. Also, you had such a long wait for your booster, and will be feeling cold and tired. These things lower resistance.
As I have said before, my bad days with the ME sometimes induce a negative mood. I try to fight that one, because it saps the spirit, but on the other hand, there are days when I just feel sad, and have sad dreams, but I tell myself that a different day will come. This is exactly what you are saying.
Our families, or elements of our families, might be cruel and reject us, but remember what we have been saying about the kindness of strangers. P. X
They do say that you have to give it away to keep it don't they.
We all get those days when we brood a lot. It doesn't matter, as long as it doesn't set in and become a habit of mind, and so your gratitude journal is a brilliant way of keeping the Demons at bay. Also, you had such a long wait for your booster, and will be feeling cold and tired. These things lower resistance.
As I have said before, my bad days with the ME sometimes induce a negative mood. I try to fight that one, because it saps the spirit, but on the other hand, there are days when I just feel sad, and have sad dreams, but I tell myself that a different day will come. This is exactly what you are saying.
Our families, or elements of our families, might be cruel and reject us, but remember what we have been saying about the kindness of strangers. P. X
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Oh for sure we all have those days where our minds wander to those dark and sad places. I think at "special times", like Christmas, birthdays, mother's day - it can hit us harder. But you know, it's ok to feel. We need to feel it in order to process it. Bloody rotten at the time though!
I agree with Poetry, you have much wisdom to share with this young lady, that will help her forge a life for herself. What a gift to be able to give someone, Lesleerose.
I hate when I have "shoogly nail" days, as it makes us feel vulnerable. They pass!
Let's have a group ((((hug)))).
Sharing the love to all.
L xx
I agree with Poetry, you have much wisdom to share with this young lady, that will help her forge a life for herself. What a gift to be able to give someone, Lesleerose.
I hate when I have "shoogly nail" days, as it makes us feel vulnerable. They pass!
Let's have a group ((((hug)))).
Sharing the love to all.
L xx
"You can choose to continually live in the shadow of your addict, allowing his/her chaos and drama to dictate your whole existence, or you can take control of your life."
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Thank you LM and poetry got to a meeting really need my special friends... the kindness of strangers poetry won’t forget that .....
Went to a meeting I had to ....I suffer badly from this illness ....
Feeling so much better was asked to chair the meeting I plucked up like a pheasant... we are like that when anything is asked of us anything to feel useful and help our fellow sufferers here on famanon ....
I believe we cross a pain barrier that no human being should have to cross with our loved ones in addiction...
I feel this too in long time recovery....
Yes poetry the jabs and standing for 2 hours in the cold makes you miserable.....
I have a brand new life on a daily basis contingent on my spiritual growth I get that by helping others and also the way others have helped me here on famanon
Bless you in fellowship just for today ....
Lesleyrose
Went to a meeting I had to ....I suffer badly from this illness ....
Feeling so much better was asked to chair the meeting I plucked up like a pheasant... we are like that when anything is asked of us anything to feel useful and help our fellow sufferers here on famanon ....
I believe we cross a pain barrier that no human being should have to cross with our loved ones in addiction...
I feel this too in long time recovery....
Yes poetry the jabs and standing for 2 hours in the cold makes you miserable.....
I have a brand new life on a daily basis contingent on my spiritual growth I get that by helping others and also the way others have helped me here on famanon
Bless you in fellowship just for today ....
Lesleyrose
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Hi Lesleyrose That is a good post and how true it is that the depressing thoughts can come to us about many
tragic experiences that have come to our lives only one thing we are sure of we live through them and get through to a
new day. I like the idea of a gratitude journal only I get a little bit side-tracked with mine sometimes I must have started it about three years ago and so many times I forget to write in it and if I am honest just get lazy and don't bother.
I am aware of everything that comes to me in a day though even the simplest thing shows me that life can be wonderful and worth living. I've got this mindset that is always looking for the best in everyone although believe me family have
dragged it out of me on occasions.
It is natural you will think of your addict daughter and when you have not seen her for so long you will just think about her and wonder how she is. At the end of the day you are her mother and no matter how much we want to forget everything about our sons/daughters it is not as easy as that. I think getting the young women on Thursday to sponsor will be good for you and give you important things to think about and there will be much you can do to help her.
I too have been letting slight depression creep in but am fighting those feelings and living the day as it comes. For me
my daughter has been in touch this week and to be honest as much as I want to know how she is and particularly the children she brings so much baggage and drama that I get overwhelmed. I gave an update on her a couple of weeks ago
and she told me her Social Services drug test came back negative, if that was the case then I am happy for her I hope she can sort her life out. This week I had all her drama as the SOCIAL Services drug test is positive she had been lying to me before as the test had not even been sorted then. Apparently she was having a big Child/family meeting with them this morning and they were going to tell her what they had found in her system she had not even had her paperwork back from them so she was really angry with them. I have rung her three times to find out what happened but no answer from her phone, I would drive around to her place but I have put my car in for a service which was booked over a week ago so at the moment no transport and it will be ready about 4.30pm.
That's a bit late then because her eldest sister will be coming home from work and she is still not talking to me and she is behaving like an immature child. How on earth can we put the childrens' needs and what got to be done for them when as adults we are not all putting our heads together to come up with a statergy and plan.
Just rambling on now hope everyone is having a good day, one thing I have planned for myself is some retreat meetings done on-line and another thing they are organizing people from the church to assist with you when your spiritual resolves are being tested and you want to get more out of your spiritual endeavours I putting my name forward for that also. As dark as my daughters problems are I need calm and peace in my life as enduring her chaos
only leads to low morale and poor health.
All stay well and take care.
Splendourangel
tragic experiences that have come to our lives only one thing we are sure of we live through them and get through to a
new day. I like the idea of a gratitude journal only I get a little bit side-tracked with mine sometimes I must have started it about three years ago and so many times I forget to write in it and if I am honest just get lazy and don't bother.
I am aware of everything that comes to me in a day though even the simplest thing shows me that life can be wonderful and worth living. I've got this mindset that is always looking for the best in everyone although believe me family have
dragged it out of me on occasions.
It is natural you will think of your addict daughter and when you have not seen her for so long you will just think about her and wonder how she is. At the end of the day you are her mother and no matter how much we want to forget everything about our sons/daughters it is not as easy as that. I think getting the young women on Thursday to sponsor will be good for you and give you important things to think about and there will be much you can do to help her.
I too have been letting slight depression creep in but am fighting those feelings and living the day as it comes. For me
my daughter has been in touch this week and to be honest as much as I want to know how she is and particularly the children she brings so much baggage and drama that I get overwhelmed. I gave an update on her a couple of weeks ago
and she told me her Social Services drug test came back negative, if that was the case then I am happy for her I hope she can sort her life out. This week I had all her drama as the SOCIAL Services drug test is positive she had been lying to me before as the test had not even been sorted then. Apparently she was having a big Child/family meeting with them this morning and they were going to tell her what they had found in her system she had not even had her paperwork back from them so she was really angry with them. I have rung her three times to find out what happened but no answer from her phone, I would drive around to her place but I have put my car in for a service which was booked over a week ago so at the moment no transport and it will be ready about 4.30pm.
That's a bit late then because her eldest sister will be coming home from work and she is still not talking to me and she is behaving like an immature child. How on earth can we put the childrens' needs and what got to be done for them when as adults we are not all putting our heads together to come up with a statergy and plan.
Just rambling on now hope everyone is having a good day, one thing I have planned for myself is some retreat meetings done on-line and another thing they are organizing people from the church to assist with you when your spiritual resolves are being tested and you want to get more out of your spiritual endeavours I putting my name forward for that also. As dark as my daughters problems are I need calm and peace in my life as enduring her chaos
only leads to low morale and poor health.
All stay well and take care.
Splendourangel
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Dearest splendour angel you are not rambling goodness what a time you are having with social services your girls and of course the little ones that’s why we are called GRAND mothers ..
As you say why can’t we all pull together to resolve some of the issues but mine just don’t want to know I never hear from them not had a Xmas Mother’s Day card in many years ( except when addict daughter was in treatment centres ) so not really from love but duty ...
We will all get through this got my jabs so they knocked me out ...
But I am back to my gratitude journal and am free I find my god in AA meetings 22 years now and they are mostly in church halls .. my gratitude journal also takes away that hole in the soul I still suffer from so thank god for the people the power and the program...
If I have learned nothing else I have learned I am powerless over people places and things ....
Bless you in fellowship
Lesleerose
As you say why can’t we all pull together to resolve some of the issues but mine just don’t want to know I never hear from them not had a Xmas Mother’s Day card in many years ( except when addict daughter was in treatment centres ) so not really from love but duty ...
We will all get through this got my jabs so they knocked me out ...
But I am back to my gratitude journal and am free I find my god in AA meetings 22 years now and they are mostly in church halls .. my gratitude journal also takes away that hole in the soul I still suffer from so thank god for the people the power and the program...
If I have learned nothing else I have learned I am powerless over people places and things ....
Bless you in fellowship
Lesleerose
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Splendour Angel
Lesley is so right. You are having a hard time of it at the moment. I think the trick is to recognise how difficult things are, (well, difficult is a misnomer), but to see as much of the positive as we can.
Although things are so grim for you, and your other daughter is behaving badly, at least you are able to see everything clearly, and to know that the priorities are yourself and your grandchildren.
I was about to say that it's a strange thing that we all fall for the lies which addicts tell, but it isn't strange at all, because we are people trying to live our best lives for the most part, and so we're conditioned to be truthful. If someone tells me something, I automatically believe it. I can't think of many lies I've told in my life.
Quite a few times I've heard myself saying what a fool I was for falling for all of the lies and deceptions and the ridiculous crazy stories my addict told me, which I believed. But the fact is, I wasn't a fool-I was just a good person willing to see the best in someone, thinking that my child, my adult child, would not lie to me.
There are always going to be those days, or even parts of days, when we feel that we are not coping with the pain, but those times pass, and thank God, because we have one another, we aren't lonely.
I think I wrote in a recent post about Mother's Day being the one that occasionally catches me by the throat. I was sent a photograph, Mother's Day a few years ago, of my son with a badly cut eye and his hand bandaged, after a fight. I think I wrote that on here quite recently. In a way it's quite good for me, because I looked at it and said to myself, "So that's what you think a decent Mother's Day present is."
Like you, Splendour Angel, I feel as if I am now rambling, but something I am quite determined about is that my son is not coming back. I don't mean physically coming back, tho he won't be allowed in this house anyway, but spiritually he is not coming back. He's made his decision and he's gone.
It hurts, and it's so hard to believe some days, but I've dug my heels in, just as he has committed himself to drugs over family love.
Hugs to you all. P.
Lesley is so right. You are having a hard time of it at the moment. I think the trick is to recognise how difficult things are, (well, difficult is a misnomer), but to see as much of the positive as we can.
Although things are so grim for you, and your other daughter is behaving badly, at least you are able to see everything clearly, and to know that the priorities are yourself and your grandchildren.
I was about to say that it's a strange thing that we all fall for the lies which addicts tell, but it isn't strange at all, because we are people trying to live our best lives for the most part, and so we're conditioned to be truthful. If someone tells me something, I automatically believe it. I can't think of many lies I've told in my life.
Quite a few times I've heard myself saying what a fool I was for falling for all of the lies and deceptions and the ridiculous crazy stories my addict told me, which I believed. But the fact is, I wasn't a fool-I was just a good person willing to see the best in someone, thinking that my child, my adult child, would not lie to me.
There are always going to be those days, or even parts of days, when we feel that we are not coping with the pain, but those times pass, and thank God, because we have one another, we aren't lonely.
I think I wrote in a recent post about Mother's Day being the one that occasionally catches me by the throat. I was sent a photograph, Mother's Day a few years ago, of my son with a badly cut eye and his hand bandaged, after a fight. I think I wrote that on here quite recently. In a way it's quite good for me, because I looked at it and said to myself, "So that's what you think a decent Mother's Day present is."
Like you, Splendour Angel, I feel as if I am now rambling, but something I am quite determined about is that my son is not coming back. I don't mean physically coming back, tho he won't be allowed in this house anyway, but spiritually he is not coming back. He's made his decision and he's gone.
It hurts, and it's so hard to believe some days, but I've dug my heels in, just as he has committed himself to drugs over family love.
Hugs to you all. P.
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Hi all my grandmother used to say there is no greater love than a mother has for her child I believe this she also said when you love someone you very much care what they do ....
I believe this also as mothers it’s not until we have exhausted every avenue to help them when they can’t take care of themselves the mother kicks in because as we know our addicts never seem to grow up ....
We can sometimes see the innocence come through the addiction and the mother doesn’t just see this we feel this instinct to wrap our arms around them with love and ask the angels to do the same ....
Then the addict comes back like jeckle and Hyde and our hopes are a distant memory thinking we have fallen for it again .... I honestly don’t believe the illness takes over completely until they die “ where there is life there is hope “ my gran again ....
Also I read recently when there is no evil in you it is very hard to see evil ...( drug abuse induced evil )
I started taking the lady through the program today she really enjoyed it as did I ...
We have to give it away to keep it as poetry often says so please all keep posting as that is giving it away it keeps me sane I need all of you united we stand devided we Fall ...
I followed that up with an AA hour meeting... so feeling good just for the day
Bless you all in fellowship
Lesleyrose
I believe this also as mothers it’s not until we have exhausted every avenue to help them when they can’t take care of themselves the mother kicks in because as we know our addicts never seem to grow up ....
We can sometimes see the innocence come through the addiction and the mother doesn’t just see this we feel this instinct to wrap our arms around them with love and ask the angels to do the same ....
Then the addict comes back like jeckle and Hyde and our hopes are a distant memory thinking we have fallen for it again .... I honestly don’t believe the illness takes over completely until they die “ where there is life there is hope “ my gran again ....
Also I read recently when there is no evil in you it is very hard to see evil ...( drug abuse induced evil )
I started taking the lady through the program today she really enjoyed it as did I ...
We have to give it away to keep it as poetry often says so please all keep posting as that is giving it away it keeps me sane I need all of you united we stand devided we Fall ...
I followed that up with an AA hour meeting... so feeling good just for the day
Bless you all in fellowship
Lesleyrose
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Hi Poetry and Lesleerose and thank-you for the posts and you are right it is a time of despair over my daughter and
with the eldest one behaving so badly it does not make things any easier. I still pray and read my bible each day,
if only some days for half an hour and like you Lesleerose all this came from my grand-mother on my mums side who had her own children baptized into the Catholic faith and then us second generation baptized also. I have never been a real wrongdoer growing up but of course told the odd lie to my mother on occasions only there was one thing with my mum she would always know and she would say to me "I know when your telling lies it is in your eyes" I would still try to fool her but she always knew so lucky for me those little lies were nothing too serious.
To get back to my daughter she finally phoned at 6p.m yesterday, of course I had been worried and wanted to hear about the Social Services meeting. She had made such a fuss about the drugs test being positive although her head S Worker has now gone on leave and the drugs test was not discussed in the meting until he returns. She complained bitterly that she was fed up with it all and had had enough.
I know she was looking for money but she did not ask and even if she had she would not have got it. I feel that once again
I have been the fool as on Tuesday when I saw her I did not have time to go shopping with her and gave her money as I had stuff of my own to do. I am the fool that believes the lies because it is hard for me when I only believe the good in people. I know I must not enable her and pray for the strength to tell her a firm No as I know it does not help her. So
that has been what has been going on with me this week. The girl frazzles my brain at times and although I think of happy times for Christmas it would drive me insane to be around her for too long
So pleased Lesleerose that the girl you sponsored enjoyed the meeting I do hope she continues in the fellowship and achieves success it can only be a good thing that she is seeking sobriety.
I have so much to do in the house I best get on.
Take care.
splendourangel
with the eldest one behaving so badly it does not make things any easier. I still pray and read my bible each day,
if only some days for half an hour and like you Lesleerose all this came from my grand-mother on my mums side who had her own children baptized into the Catholic faith and then us second generation baptized also. I have never been a real wrongdoer growing up but of course told the odd lie to my mother on occasions only there was one thing with my mum she would always know and she would say to me "I know when your telling lies it is in your eyes" I would still try to fool her but she always knew so lucky for me those little lies were nothing too serious.
To get back to my daughter she finally phoned at 6p.m yesterday, of course I had been worried and wanted to hear about the Social Services meeting. She had made such a fuss about the drugs test being positive although her head S Worker has now gone on leave and the drugs test was not discussed in the meting until he returns. She complained bitterly that she was fed up with it all and had had enough.
I know she was looking for money but she did not ask and even if she had she would not have got it. I feel that once again
I have been the fool as on Tuesday when I saw her I did not have time to go shopping with her and gave her money as I had stuff of my own to do. I am the fool that believes the lies because it is hard for me when I only believe the good in people. I know I must not enable her and pray for the strength to tell her a firm No as I know it does not help her. So
that has been what has been going on with me this week. The girl frazzles my brain at times and although I think of happy times for Christmas it would drive me insane to be around her for too long
So pleased Lesleerose that the girl you sponsored enjoyed the meeting I do hope she continues in the fellowship and achieves success it can only be a good thing that she is seeking sobriety.
I have so much to do in the house I best get on.
Take care.
splendourangel
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Dearest angel you are not a fool you are a loving mother who has tried her best same as me ....
Your life will get better on here and you will detach totally with love
Maybe you can get someone in your area should be a live meeting to take you through the 12 step programme am sure there was one starting on here on the 30 th of November your never to late to join ...
For me it was a lifesaver the programme is simple especially when working it with others
There is also an app called my spiritual toolkit free and brilliant little readings every day it’s paper coloured with a blue spanner when you open it there is a man or woman lol climbing steps
I hope this helps
Yours in fellowship
Lesleyrose
Your life will get better on here and you will detach totally with love
Maybe you can get someone in your area should be a live meeting to take you through the 12 step programme am sure there was one starting on here on the 30 th of November your never to late to join ...
For me it was a lifesaver the programme is simple especially when working it with others
There is also an app called my spiritual toolkit free and brilliant little readings every day it’s paper coloured with a blue spanner when you open it there is a man or woman lol climbing steps
I hope this helps
Yours in fellowship
Lesleyrose
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Hi Lesleerose Thank-you for the information on the 12 step group. I must get some of the literature that can be bought from Famanon as I know it could be helpful for me. I have looked for a group as near to my area as possible and something came up only it was still about 35 minutes drive possibly a bit more and on in evening. It was a new group
someone was starting. Now with the dark cold nights I was looking for something closer to home as I do not do much travelling with winter here. I keep looking at the meetings and nothing else has come up yet.
If I do online then I will need to get on Utube as I am hopeless with mobile phones and would need a few tutorials on Zoom and how to do it. I am okay with my desktop computer but have never bothered with smart phones or the like.
I do not use one and have no apps that I bother with, I have a basic phone just to keep on me and if I am out and my son
calls to the house he can contact me. I have it on me when shopping or out with the dogs just in case of any emergencies
so I would be able to call someone. In about 2-3 years almost everything we do will go through a smart phone so don't know what I will do then. I get by okay at the moment and most things can be done on the computer and my online retreats are simple they just send me a link and once I click on then I am on it and can even send questions as it is live.
Take care
Splendourangel
someone was starting. Now with the dark cold nights I was looking for something closer to home as I do not do much travelling with winter here. I keep looking at the meetings and nothing else has come up yet.
If I do online then I will need to get on Utube as I am hopeless with mobile phones and would need a few tutorials on Zoom and how to do it. I am okay with my desktop computer but have never bothered with smart phones or the like.
I do not use one and have no apps that I bother with, I have a basic phone just to keep on me and if I am out and my son
calls to the house he can contact me. I have it on me when shopping or out with the dogs just in case of any emergencies
so I would be able to call someone. In about 2-3 years almost everything we do will go through a smart phone so don't know what I will do then. I get by okay at the moment and most things can be done on the computer and my online retreats are simple they just send me a link and once I click on then I am on it and can even send questions as it is live.
Take care
Splendourangel
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Hi again splendour angel I am not very technical either bit better because of the lockdown
If you go to the discussion board on here about 3 or 4 down there is an admin post for 12 step online program if you click on that it should direct you too a live forum or email the admin section am sure they would be very pleased to help you ..
Am not having the best of days but certainly not the worst heading to a meeting later
Bless you in fellowship have a peaceful weekend
Lesleerose
If you go to the discussion board on here about 3 or 4 down there is an admin post for 12 step online program if you click on that it should direct you too a live forum or email the admin section am sure they would be very pleased to help you ..
Am not having the best of days but certainly not the worst heading to a meeting later
Bless you in fellowship have a peaceful weekend
Lesleerose
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Lesleerose : I looked through the menu for the 12 steps program on Saturday so went onto the link it gave. I seemed to be doing okay and think that zoom downloaded only it prompted to put a password in which they said was 12 steps. I done that and it just kept saying wrong password. Anyway that could have been because the programme is live at 4p.m and it was only about 2.p.m and I was going out so just left it. I see my other little grand-son on a Sunday for a few hours that is my sons baby, so did not bother with the computer yesterday. This computer has been all over the place today so have not done a lot on it and took time out to get my christmas decorations box out instead. Hope your meeting went well and your feeling better. It must be the time of year I am feeling half happy for Christmas and half sick of the lot of it. Oh
well it all passes I think I will have a few cuddles with the dogs it always lifts my moods.
well it all passes I think I will have a few cuddles with the dogs it always lifts my moods.
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Yes dogs are great better than humans that’s for sure
Contact Admin via email on here we are all in the same place this wonderful team on here do this volunteering they have sons daughters husbands wives etc same as us we are all in this together
Bless you in fellowship
Lesleerose WOOF !!!!
Contact Admin via email on here we are all in the same place this wonderful team on here do this volunteering they have sons daughters husbands wives etc same as us we are all in this together
Bless you in fellowship
Lesleerose WOOF !!!!
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Just popped on here tonight for a bit of strength and inspiration lesleerose, which I have now just from reading posts. However, I wanted to extend and send my warmest wishes today, after reading your post. Tough times for you I can see, both past and now. You are clearly a beautiful person who has found growth in helping others, this is wonderful. I send my prayers for your family, although your daughter is obvs in a really dark place. It's strange that through suffering comes so much growth, and that it has for you, it's obvious in all your empathetic and compassionate posts, but there is still pain. I wish I could say something to ease this but I'm so new in this journey, I haven't got the words. Except to say, your posts are a strength to me, and I offer that friendship back in your moment of sadness. With much love xxx